“I now feel I have done something for God; whereas before, I felt like any other normal kid. So many more people love God now, the way I see it. Why else would they be doing all this for me? I don’t deserve any of it and I’m not special.”
“Oh I understand now. God gives us sunrises to shower us with His love and sunsets so we can forgive each other; and every new day is a gift because if morning comes we get another chance.”
"Well, I would have to admit that the last 15 months have been the most fun I've ever had in my life…My Birthday Party and the party at Coppinville then my Make A Wish to Hawaii are the top best! I also had a lot fun at the beach. I even had a lot of fun when we went to Birmingham, since we always did other things besides just going to the hospital. I can honestly say the best part of going to Birmingham was seeing Dr. Pressey and my favorite nurses...they made it all worth being there!"
Brendan sang one of his favorite songs while coming out of his seizure around 3am Sunday morning…“There are many paths to follow, voices calling out your name, bringing joys, others sorrows, but all is pointless when your alone. Striding wounded and forsaken, shattered by your guilt and shame, feeling lost isolated, O soul, my soul, I need a savior! So come see, come rest, wherever you are. Come broken, whole, however you are. He calls your name whoever you are. There is room for you, at the foot of the cross. Live and learn, learn to live, cradled in the arms of Love. To the cross rights abandoned. You’re alive! You’re alive! So come see, come rest, wherever you are. Come broken, whole, however you are. He calls your name, whoever you are. There is room for you, at the foot of the cross." Robert Galea
While at CH my husband asked Brendan, "Are you falling asleep boy?" Brendan said, "Only when I'm eating untastey food!"
“I think that this angry cancer is beating my chemo. I’m just not ready to go to heaven right now. I really wanted to live this life a little longer…Yes, I know (heaven is paradise) but I won’t know what it’s like to have a girlfriend, get married and have family." He thought a little longer and said, "Well I think it’s going to be okay though, because God must need me more in heaven if comes to that.”
"Mom, no matter what happens I win and beat this cancer. Either God wants me to live because He needs me on earth or I go to Heaven because He needs me there more, so either way I win!"
I asked Brendan if he wished cancer had never happened to him? He actually said no to my dismay! I had to ask why, “Because more good had come from my cancer than if I hadn't gotten it.”
"Mom I'm really lucky that God gave me this cancer in the liver." I ran to the bathroom to cry because I never want him to see me sad. I'm asking "Why God" and Brendan feels blessed by God!